I was told to update more...well okay, even though only one person reads this. :) New Years Eve was blast, I had a lot of fun! I have been doing a good job keeping my mind busy and not thinking about things. Jon and I have been working on our house, which has been really fun. I figure if we are going to stay here for a while, we might as well make it as perfect as we can.

Work has been keeping me super busy. I was definitely spoiled before only working part time. I am loving my paychecks, they are coming in very handy with Jon's job not having much work. I kind of feel more like a grown up, does that seem weird? Speaking of work, we all just found out that we are going to be 'merging' with Chemical Bank. I'll admit, I totally had elephants in my stomach when I found out, but there isn't much I can do. I am trying to keep a positive outlook on it. At least they are a local bank here in Michigan, contrary to what others say. They just don't know what they are talking about. I am so fed up with ignorant people leaving stupid comments on woodtv8, they have no idea what they are talking about.

Even though I am working more, I am still finding time to keep my house clean and organized. I am finding to times to different tasks. :) I have been loving my new pressure cooker, it makes my meats so yummy!

This is all for now, I hope to write more later!
God Bless!!!

Happy new year! 2010! Wow! Where does the time go? The past few years have gone by so quickly. It's coming up on 2 1/2 years of marriage for Jon and me, 3 years since we bought our

home, and 7 years of being together.

I am praying for peace for 2010. I pray peace in our economy, peace for those struggling, including myself, work for those are in need of work, and prayers for those who haven't met Jesus.

I am still struggling. It seems like each day is harder then the one before. I find myself crying more often, and that my faith is continuously being tested. I pray that 2010 is a better year than 2009.

I am praying for contentment in my life. I want to be happy for what I have and the blessings right now. I need God's help and hand to keep me positive in my own life, and not to long for what I don't have. I need to live day by day, and be peaceful with all the blessings that I do have. I am going to try very hard to make that my 'new years resolution.' May God bless you.

Struggles

If you could ask God one question, what would it be?

In my life right now, that question to him would be, "God why did you take my baby from me?"
I know he would answer me by saying, "becuase I made you strong and I know this is something that you and Jon can handle. I will provide all things for you, remember that."

This week has been so very difficult for me. My body is still recovering, but my mind isn't. My faith is being tested and I just cry because I am so upset, and lonley and mad at the world, and then that makes me even more upset. I've tried to be so strong through all of this, and I can't do it anymore. I want to wake up tomorrow morning and have this all go away, and I know it isn't. I want my baby back. I want everything to be how it was supposed to be. I want answers. I am burnt out.

And I tell you what, if one person asks me when I'm having children or why I don't have them yet, I'm gonna poke their eyes out.